Well I did get something done last night. :) So very proud of my kinda sorta productive self. yayy for Alexis.


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Well... do you think ordering school supplies off of the internet is nerdy???
yeah yeah...kinda figured

I feel like a little kid trying to play grownup.

Slacker blogger that I am...

God please help me have a peace of mind.

Back to school once again...yayyy!

I want.
I'm scared to have.
and then lose.

I'm angry and sad.
Emotions take away from the energy to act.

But when I'm happy...
I see rainbows...wonderous miracles.

Happy Birthday Momma!
Happy Birthday Daddy!

I love you!

So I'm in Austin and I've settled in
*sigh*

Now I need a system....

I have too much time on my hands...
hmmm...
I need a passion...along with a job.

volunteer tutor.business ambassador.intramural volleyball.[insert passion here].[insert job here]. *sigh*

I'm back in Austin!! I feel a deep feeling of satisfaction. I'm okay, not bleeding...

All good.

Now...to venture out of my safetly zone...

Goals for this week:

1. Actively look for a Job
2. Accept Texas Exes Invitation
3. Go to UT and see what is going on...plan to go to go to 3 events.

Safety is so nice...but it's too easy.

My emotions are so thick in my head.
I can't pick them out to write.
So tangled.
No energy to untangle.

It's like being caught in a spider's web.
The more I wrangle to be free.
I tangle even more.

Happy Birthday Tosh!

What a lazy day...
speeches speeches

Rose makes me feel better.

I'm scared about going back to Austin too...in fact I'm petrified!

I'm so sad...my heart hurts :-(

I'm not perfect. I'm not sure if I try to be. I don't do I?

Logical. That's what I try to be. But logic runs into truth sometimes (or so it seems)

I don't know what's going on anymore. I don't know my own truth.

Sometimes it's the last person that makes you first

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Sometimes a stranger can be your best friend

Michael and Mykia are here :D

I don't like people who complain and complain and never do anything about it.

I tell people this...Don't ask for my advice if you're not going to even consider what I have to say.


So...
Alexis...
Do something!

So if you never come to me
You'll stay a distant memory
Out my window I see light doing dark
Your dark eyes don't haunt me

Speech day...went well!

Oh what I would give to have a clear state of mind.

I'm so tired...

Love is union with somebody, or something, outside oneself,
under the condition of retaining the separateness and integrity of one's own self.
-Erich Fromm

We don't love qualities, we love persons;
sometimes by reason of their defects as well as
of their qualities.
-Jacques Jacques Maritain

My body feels when something is wrong.
Something is wrong.
It frustrates me when something is always wrong.
Talk to me. Help me fix it.

Not knowing sucks :-(

Birthday is coming up...
I'm excited... it's not mine.

I hope you like it...
The day, not the gift--
although I hope you like that too.

The gift is special too.
...Birthday surprises :D

timing is everything...

Every time I want to let go and be myself again.
A turtle ready to stick its head out.

This happens.
I duck my head back into safety.

Safety isn't safe anymore. What to do now.

A brick wall.
Just won't move.
uhhhh.

ooohhh lala..the days go by

*sigh* I wish I had a swing in my backyard
so I could feel the wind...and maybe believe like I once did
that one day I would reach the sky.

*smile*

There they go running!!!! I don't think these girls live on my street.

Ha! The funniest thing! These girls from down the street were ringing our doorbell and running off. But that's not the funny part; they didn't care if we saw them and took pictures. They just seemed to liked our doorbell! Hehehe to be that young again :D

How the days do fly...

*sigh* Off work...got nothing done.

Bad Alexis

For some reason I'm amazingly happy...

I think it's you.

Sagittarius & Leo
The Fire signs Leo and Sagittarius pursue the same goals, and can succeed in allying their strengths instead of competing. Optimistic, generous, and romantic, they understand and love each other with both passion and tenderness. They indulge in life's pleasures to the fullest, laughing unabashedly and egging each other on. Sagittarian criticism may sometimes hurt the Leo's feelings, but forgiveness will soon be forthcoming. The Lion is aware of his sacred complicity with the Centaur-Archer. Together, they reach the heights of bliss.

Beaumont was great...I got to see a piece of you.

Gumbo.Bootleg movies.Daycare kids.Bike Rides.Picture Booths.Dippin Dots.Logan's.Friends. Family.Disney Cartoons.Me.You.*Smile*