I miss you.

"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you.  You just have to find the ones worth suffering for."

--Bob Marley

Disaster.

He broke me. 
But...
love him with every breath in my body. 
Who knew?


Happy.  And broken.

"...there is only one fight in a marriage, the first one.  And as much as you might try the fight is never solved   Over time, it becomes a conundrum, the immovable thing, the inexplicable conflict that forms a wall between you.  It grows higher and higher, and then the vines come, and when the wall is grown over in bramble and weed, there's no getting over it.  You cannot see past it, get around it, or blow through it.  It takes up the space between you, and no amount of love can bring that wall down."

Le Sigh.

...

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

...

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

...

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?



...

Don't you hate it when people say things like...

"You know me, I don't care about things like THAT."

Then they turn out to care about things like THAT.
They get mad over things like THAT.
They complain about things like THAT.

It's almost funny.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.

It sucks growing up...

alone.

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It wasn't his fault either.  Such is life.

He says.  I didn't have to put up with it.

Now I wish I hadn't.

If only I could do it over again. My fault.

this.

Source

 

"The only way it could have been worse is if I had peed on myself while talking to her."

"Yeah yeah I liked it when you played it for the first time at ten o'clock last night.
I liked it a little bit less at two am. 
And now I'm kind of hoping that the sun comes up, falls in that river and that woman drowns."

#nowplaying Southern Hummingbird by Tweet

We know what that means...

I would not get over it. It was a small betrayal, I know, but it is the first betrayal that hurts the most. It is the first betrayal that slays innocence and leaves a scar that is never forgotten. (from The Yellow House, page 146)

Why am I the only one who has to be understanding?