Too much coming at me at once... Give me a break.

"It's not the size of the muscle that matters, it's where you get to put it."

Makes me think of my brother. really.

It doesn't feel right. It feels wrong.
Uneasy.

Used to know, but not anymore.
Unnatural.


Want to ask, but asking is the impossible.
Confusing.


Giving up never sounded so good.
Tired.

It doesn't feel right. It feels wrong.
Uneasy.

"I guess he can't get any girls he wants."

If you can't remember what your girlfriend looks like, you should just mark on her arm so you will always know.

"Why don't you burn the plastic helmet?"
plastic helmet = panther head

"Leave room for Jesus."

"We are all different, but in the end, we are all fruit."

"Lambs in kitchen tigers in the bedroom."


Teacher Training...

You broke it.
Why should I have to fix it?
I don't know how to fix it.
It's not fair.
I didn't break it. You did.
You broke it.
You fix it. or you buy it.

Am I still waiting?
Do I know how to stop?
What am I waiting for?
I know what I am waiting for...
But it takes a man to give it to me

A man. I can't say I know how to be a man either.

Questions.
Lies.
Broken phones.
did.
unanswered phone calls.
long gaps.


Things are again.

"Thank God for google images."

lol.

I think that means the answer is no.

Relentless pursuit of results.

Sense of possibility.

Disciplined thought.

Respect and humility.

Integrity.

Non-negotiable:

Ice Cream. Love. Fiber One bars. Sushi. Love. Frozen Yogurt. Thin crust pizza. Taquitos from the Taquito Factory. Love. Stair master. Running (uhh). Scales. Percent Body Fat. Love. CM love. FA love. RRS. Love. Resources. BBQ. Reams of paper. Planning. Copies. Love. Eric's. RFOC. 08. 07. T-shirts. Love. 5 minute Rain storms. Lesson Plans. Love. Missing doors. Bad emails. Shirtless teachers. Love. Gym. Elliptical. Master schedules. Teams. Love. Packing. Moving. Weddings. Love. Rice crispy treats. Peanut brittle. Mirrors. Gas Prices. Love. Resources (you want what?). Observations. Treats. Binders. Love.

Negotiable (apparently):

Me. Love. You. Love. Me and You. Love.

I think when you really care for someone you do whatever it takes to make it work. I don't mean moving to another city. I mean trying over and over to figure out whatever it is that will show a person that you care and will never give up on them and your relationship. You want the relationship and care what happens to it. You ensure hope. You do not fail to act. Your fear of rejection is overpowered by a fear of losing your love, your future, your soul. If you refuse to act, it does not mean you are a coward, but maybe that you do not feel this powerful emotion for that person.

Love a lot. Love completely. Love always.

When you do not feel that strongly for someone. Or. Someone does not feel that for you. You are both settling.

Settling for whats comfortable, easy, and routine. But you are missing out on that person that you can feel that way about or they can feel about you. You are missing out on passion and happiness.

I feel that way for someone. But it is not returned at the same level. If I remain around, I am saying that I am not good enough for that kind of love and am giving up on finding it. Hope of changing the way someone feels about you can only last so long. You can pretend that it's there but you will get that "kick in the face" every once in awhile to remind you of what you are still waiting for.

By leaving, I am at least saying that I am worth it. No, I may never find it. I could end up alone for the rest of my life. But at least I acknowledge my worth and refuse to compromise or settle for just anything.

Excuses are everywhere. When you do not know, you cannot act. I know. Therefore, I must act or face disapointment. I think I also must act so that I am taken seriously. My feelings. My love, wants, needs.

My actions must follow my words.

I got your voicemail today.

The one from that day.

"Hey baby...I just got a phone call...and that should be more than enough and with that being said I'm gone...accept in the next couple of days...that's all I needed...I know you're at work, but I couldn't wait to tell you...it just speaks to how hard they are trying and they really want me to join the team....I don't know how I could pass it up."

I listened again.
And again. The message never changed

The tone. The voice. The excitement.

It wasn't good enough.
I don't understand.

My heart is a little broken.
Just a little...

So I understand that some people have problems with doors...
But do you really have to take them off?

Comment: "Odd how we latch onto marriage as the only sort of happy ending to balance the scale."

Reply: "I suppose it's some sort of affirmation of hope for the future. If one does it for the right reasons."

vertical touching

Thinking...

I don't miss them. I really don't.



Oh maybe a little. Oh... there... it's over now.
I don't miss them. I really don't.

lanyard

Some things are missed.

Some simple.

Some gone.

Some things never change.

10 THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO DO SOON (and instead of the gym)!

1. Salsa dancing

2. Walking on the beach

3. Playing tag in the ocean

4. Walking through a green park

5. Play tennis

6. Turn some cartwheels

7. Ice skating (am I too late?)

8. Jumping rope (double-dutch)

9. Kickboxing

10. Reading by a pool!

Tick Tock...

11 Practical Changes to Make Your Life Better!

Adult conversation :0

Apparently...


It took Odysseus 28 days to get home to Ithaca.

Odysseus took a long time getting home because he had to complete the 12 labors.

Jason was looking for the golden shirt.

Aphrodite is the goddess of fertilizer.

Odysseus' biggest strength is that he is smart and his biggest weakness is his stupidity.

Hercules' weakness is his hair.

Jesus wrote The Odyssey.

Hephaestus is the God of electricity.

Odysseus is still alive today.

Hercules' weakness is his Achilles heel.

Omar wrote The Odyssey.

I think... I remind you of what you are not, and you hate me for it.

"Make impossible your favorite word."
~Jillian Michaels

Let it go for 2008...

By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Does life get easier?

Falls lighter?
Decisions better?
Love forever?

A broken heart cannot be mended by tears.

It feels like spring (especially with the itchy eyes)!

-Spring Break-

Lockdown - missed
Pizza Mia
The Zoo - Ice Cream
Getting
Lost Keys
Tornadoes?
Flights - you get in when?
Found Keys
HOME
FOOD
SLEEP!
MORE SLEEP!
George Lopez

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me hap-py
When skies are grey
You'll never know dear
How much I love you
So, Pllleeeaaassseee
Don't take my sunshine away!

Unfulfilled.

THAT BOY: how was today a fun day as you said earlier
ME: yeah we are working with magazines and pictures on powerpoint
I have powerpoint in my classroom!
THAT BOY: ooooooohhhhhhhh mrs. document cam and projector

There are some perks to being a teacher.
You know...

Friends.
Sushi.
and Blue stuff.

MISS YOU MUCH!

The ONE that did not get away...

It is not okay to read books in class but it is okay to watch movies.

"It is better to be judged by 12 than carried by 6."

Justliketheoldays...

I almost got hit by a buggy.

I was dancing in the shower tonight.
I never do that.
It would have served me right
to fall and bust my ass.
But I didn't.
I was dancing in the shower tonight.
Really. That never happens.

***

The antonym of "contraband" is NOT "milk and cookies."

"even dough"

...Grading essays...

I wonder why people don't think that you can notice the change.

They used to say the words.
They used to tell what they were doing before you had to ask.
They used to speak in a tone that held caring even in the frustrating times.
They used to want to talk.
They used to call.

I wonder why people don't think that you can notice the change.
Or that you haven't seen it before.
Without love, you have to just give up.

"What kind of woman are you?"

He said...

It is better to misplace a car then to have it stolen.

Teacher moments...

"A grown woman knows when to let you go."

I love you...and you can take that any way you want.

If I get blamed for someone else's passive aggressive-"ness" one more time...

Red lights appear to be optional now.

So being a teacher DOES come in handy.
"Are you a student?"

"Do you have any teacher identification?"

Some cops like teachers.

Oh... and don't pull over on the left side of the road.

Utter rediculousness. Just take notes!

"rice cakes, eggnog, and ACP."

"no wait...there's a cow on that eggnog."

"how about some corn [on your burrito]."

"I sit through car washes during my lunch break."



...Some things....you just have to be there!

Student: I wish there was a time machine so I can go back during that time and give them a piece of my mind. Ooooh Man. Uh. If I was there--

Another student: you wouldn't make it back.

I am in charage of the panther head.

...and I get paid in Starbucks.

So ummm... yeah

fire drill. lunch. not smart.

Soooo um...

lunch.
Houston exits.
Going through neighborhoods...
"Is this a dead end?" - 5 minutes!
Drive through...waiting...waiting... - late
Nevermind, no time
NO LUNCH!

Oh they wrote it wrong on the schedule.
No inservice.

lunch.

MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

No one ever thinks about the person
who has to see the same movie/scenes
3-4 or even 6-7 times a day.

MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

I hate bathrooms and supposed overactive bladders.

"A single quote is like one hand clapping."

A4 - My last period tests.

Tests are such great days.

- quiet

- focused

- purposeful

Haven't we all been programmed that way?

What would happen if I called everthing a test...

Quiet everyday?

On task everyday?

Careful thought everyday?

Stress + panic everyday?

Nope, maybe in an ideal world.

The power of one word.

You have been at work too long when the janitor comes and tells you "cinco minutos" and the lights start turning off as you hurry down the stairs.

At least we didn't get one of the cars locked inside the gate this time around.

My student explains to me that he has found an example of "mean mugging" in Shakespeare...

"Friends are great, but friends are not going to be here on a night when you're coughing and can't sleep and someone has to sit up all night with you, comfort you, try to be helpful."

--Tuesdays with Morrie

Houston CM Love

Happy Hours
Parties
Dancing
Pictures
Early mornings
Lines
Free food, where?
Mexican food!
Traffic, bad directions
Support
Davis High
2 minute thunderstorms

Hmm... the lists take me back...

Institute

*NO SLEEP
*Getting on the bus on time, what?
*Dorreetos
*Team Sponge bob, Team Purple, and Team Fresh
*NO SLEEP
*5-step Lesson Plans
*Pacing
*BP wannabe
*NO SLEEP
*Happy Hour Margaritas
*Thai CMA dinner
*RFOC
*NO SLEEP
*Ms. Kersey (roommate fun)
*Near break downs...triumph
*Where is my phone? My keys? My mind?
*Did I say NO SLEEP?
*Limited Copies
*Broken Printers
*Karaoke

Insight into the world of "Teacher Moments"

I miss you guys...hello sleep...maybe not

I can't help the way that I feel.

hmmm...

See Im Commin' To The End
Of My Silent Partnerin'
Or Bargaining For Affection

Your Mind Is Made
On A Bain Opinions
From Aqauintences
Whose Situations Suggest Loneliness

Patients Runs Thin
As U Go Through Your Motions
I Cry Oceans
Tears Become Orphans
As My Soul Leaves Its Apartment
I Get Migranes
Pastranes
Tears Stains
And Fear Gains
With Increases In The Pain

I Get A Headache

Remembering the good times. Time does fly.

Am I pretending that this will work?

Can you be with someone with different values than you have? Should you feel sick inside? What will be the excuse next time?

Will this work?

Funny how my world keeps spinnin'
sometimes you can be so silly
You know just how to make me laugh
Ooh, your skin is so lovely
It moves me when you touch me
I know that you got my back
It feels so safe when you hold me
It's already like you know me

Strange Fruit-

Here is fruit for the crows to pluck,
For the rain to gather, for the wind to suck,
For the sun to rot, for the trees to drop,
Here is a strange and bitter crop

...

What does she have on me
What does she do that is so damn good that would make you give up
all the love all the trust and the stuff that you built with me
Does she know my name
Did you ever tell her that she was taking and breaking the bond that we strengthened
through blood sweat and tears over the years

Another relationship
How could you do this to us is that what this is about
Another relationship

How could you leave so easily
Is she worth all that baby
Sacrificed our happy life
For Another relationshipA
nd this wasnt what you promised me
Another relationship
Another relationship
You said you would love me love me
love me forever baby
So how come I wasnt good enough
I know all relationships get tough,
How could you do this to me

...

Yay for TFA. http://www.mackinac.org/article.aspx?ID=4045

The unknown, isn't unknown.

2 + 2 = 4

When you wish upon a star.

Yet, I haven't seen a star in ages.

Stubborn. Naive. Scared.

Tomorrow 2 + 2 = 2

In my world.

"Eighty percent of success is showing up."

"Until you value yourself, you won't value your time. Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it."

Yay. No School. School canceled because of ice. College gets better and better.

Being born with a mixed anatomy happens more often than you think. According to the Intersex Society of North America, 1 in 100 people have bodies that don't meet the standard definition of male or female.

A recent CareerBuilder.com survey uncovered unusual jobs like Blueberry counter, dynamite packer, fantasy theme park character, obituary writer, trapper of black bears and voice for recorded announcements.

Not owning a TV. Fewer than 2% of American households are without one.

The average American family has 1.86 children. A baby is born every 8 seconds in America, and it's slightly more likely to be male. One woman loved having children so much she did it 69 times! Her identity is unknown and whether or not she lives in a shoe and does not know what to do is uncertain.

The American dream of a college education hasn't come true for most Americans - only 24.4% of us have completed a bachelor's degree or higher.

Squatting. While illegal in the U.S. it's legal in the U.K. In fact, under British law, squatters are even entitled to electricity, water and other essential services.

If you're soooo cute, then why are you so desperate? lmao...it's called settling