Life, Love, and Disaster

I'm so sad. One Word: bleak
I don't even know the direction to turn, I don't even understand this feeling. I don't know what to do next. My logical mind says to move on. Something inside me urges me to fix it. And me....well...I guess I'm just stunned. I didn't plan this and I don't think I can fix it. Therefore I feel lost. And feeling lost is just another feeling itself. My mind is moving so fast, yet it thinks of nothing. Well, nothing logical that I can touch and feel. I think my mind is still in fix it mode, but it's out of my control. How do you fix things you can not control? You can't...so you don't put yourself in that position...you don' t mess up. I messed up and I have to face the consequences. But my mind is not excepting...I'm not excepting...I'm so sad. bleak.