I leave today...hmmm...  *smile*

I think today was...interesting

comfortable.      bad thoughts...none
where? Don't care. why? why not?
no wondering

trust. no. not yet. one step closer

friends. great. call you tomorrow. love you

I don't know what to think anymore...

English is almost over.  yessss!

I need sleep...

Once or twice a day...
That's pretty often.

It makes me wonder
why I try
why I hope

Why I don't just give up.

Moved in...hmmm.. what a work out *phew*

I don't know what's wrong with me...
I'm tired...that's what it is...I think

*sigh* I know it's not

Said my How-to-Speech today... It went well, I wish I would have been a little more prepared because I felt like I could have given more information in the same amount of time.  Oh well, I'll do better on the next one. 

I really don't know why I'm so motivated to do well on these speeches.  Maybe it's the atmosphere.  Who knows...

I am young
I am free
But I get tired and I get weak
I get lost and I can't sleep
But suddenly....

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly 

                                

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It's better when I don't think about the past...
Sometimes, you just have to accept it.
Doesn't make it less than what it was...
Just makes it gone.

What's your perception of love
Now, how many times did we say it was over
And how many times did we not leave
There's no sense in this love hangover 
            

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Sometimes my eyes won't close from weepin'

Wondering where you been
I can't cope with this

Some things never change...so I'm going to bed  :-(

So it seems that I will be making a trip to Beaumont.  Hmmm... how interesting...how fun...how exciting.  Can't wait!!! 

"Society everywhere is in conspiracy against the manhood of every one of its members. Society is a joint-stock company, in which the members agree, for the better securing of his bread to each shareholder, to surrender the liberty and culture of the eater. " -Ralph Waldo Emerson from "Self-Reliance"

I love my brother,
he can't sing!
 
But he is so adorable.

I still remember our first kiss
I'm nervous and tremblin'

"Nothing at last is sacred but the integrity of your own mind."  - Ralph Waldo Emerson, from Self-Reliance

I feel like nothing is ever going to go my way.
Why get my hopes up that things will work out?
Why try your hardest and hope that people will notice
Why care?

Oh my gosh I can't empty my mind of thoughts.
Good thoughts. Bad thoughts. Thoughts...
*sigh*
 
On another note, I think I have a stalker :-(
 
Oh and an old lady on oxygen cursed me out at work today.  That was interesting.
I wasn't even mad, I just couldn't believe the situation.  *hehe*
Maybe I shouldn't laugh :-(
But it was really funny.

Quizzes are funny because they never have the answers that I would want to choose...hmmm...
My search is on for the perfect quiz...
 
But for now here is this one, although I'm not too sure if it is me.  How do you sum someone like me up in one word?  You can't so why try? 
 
Your soul is WILLFUL. You are determined and a
little reckless, and you do whatever you want
to do. You have strong opinions and are not
easily swayed, and your headstrong resolve is
not easily countered. You have few regrets.
People find your refusal to go down without a
fight formidable, and they respect you for it.
You are a proud and content soul.

What Is Your Soul's Trait?
brought to you by

I see the etch of your face
And it makes it hard for me to breathe

Great green gobs of greasy grimey gopher guts,
Mutiliated monkey meat,
Chopped up birdie feet!
 
French fried eyeballs mixed in with baby mush,
I for-got my spoon!
 
 
 
Does anybody else remember this besides me?

I don't think that conversation went like I planned. 
I was only trying to help.
 
Tryinig to help always gets me in trouble, I should know and accept this.
 
*sigh*  I'll patch it up tomorrow.  Poor baby...

I wonder...
If life wasn't so confusing,
would I still have fun? 

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I said my dream speech yesturday, and it was so fun.  At first I thought I didn't have any dreams cause I didn't know what I wanted to be in life :-(  But then I realized that I did have a dream although it isn't specific in the career area.  When I was pretending in class that all my dreams came true, I felt so happy.  My dreams aren't out there in lala land.  They can come true.  Dreams are wonderful.  It felt great just thinking of them and sharing.  Oh fun fun, happy happy :-}

I love you

Why do we fight
I'm tired
I can't fight anymore

I'm sorry for not being myself
I wish away the doubts
I do love you
 
I miss you
But I just still don't know

Doctors appointment...good.

For once.

I'm so frustrated.

It's too much. I'm tired of trying to please everybody, because nobody is ever happy and I work my butt off and come up empty.

That is just not fair!

Finally...I'm wondering what took so long.

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go

And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

"Here without you" 3 Doors Down

I hope you mean it...

With you I get so high
Lost in the crystal sky

I'm still wondering what the whole promise thing means...
Should I ask Tosh for the 100th time?

Maybe I just like hearing it...just a thought!

I want to show pictures of the promise ring that Tosh gave me, but there's two problems.

1. My dad keeps taking my laptop to work so he can watch movies on it.

2. It's really hard to take a good picture of big beautiful diamonds. :P

How can I be so happy,
then question my happiness.

How can I want something so bad,
then think maybe I don't need it at all.

How can I be so excited,
yet so scared.

I want to plunge in head first.
The bay on a spring afternoon.
But after the first splash,
I face the aftermath of the ripples...
then I realize that the beautiful bay
is still freezing cold from the winter.

Rose reminds me of what a slacker I am when it comes to my blog. *sigh* who cares...

I'm so tired of summer school! Next session...okay let's not think about it. Let's pretend that it's not coming and...ahhh man I can't seem to disapear in my own little world. What's going on?

The end to a great weekend..

It was a wonderful weekend,
I had it all at the same time.
(How often does that happen?)

The weather was beautiful,
My family was great...
and then, there was Tosh.

When thinking of the weekend
as a whole, the mishap
barely leaves a dent.

Although my mind hasn't been so lucky.

My eyes are open! Yeesss! Aren't we just so cute... *sigh*

Oops just couldn't keep my eyes open!

Everyone one loves the beach...yayyy!

Don't they look so cute playing on the Port Aransas Beach??

Corpus Beaches are BEAUTIFUL! How easy I forget. I think I'm just a spoiled little girl. I'm oh so sorry.

Tosh is here! Went to the beach...oh I have some great pictures with some stories to tell.

45 minute ferry wait
20 minutes to find a park

All to see Joel and Tosh fight with the baby waves!

:) *sigh*