Life, Love, and Disaster

How can I be so happy,
then question my happiness.

How can I want something so bad,
then think maybe I don't need it at all.

How can I be so excited,
yet so scared.

I want to plunge in head first.
The bay on a spring afternoon.
But after the first splash,
I face the aftermath of the ripples...
then I realize that the beautiful bay
is still freezing cold from the winter.