Life, Love, and Disaster

I wonder if it will ever leave my mind
I try to see both sides and be glad that it worked out

but...

I can't help but be disappointed.
To wonder what would have happened if I didn't go
Would there be no more?

I fought...I'm glad I did...
Every girl hopes that he would fight for her
Maybe I should just be satisfied.

My birthday is next tuesday...not really excited