Life, Love, and Disaster

They say the truth comes out with liquor.

I heard your truth tonight.
and even as the tears roll from my cheeks,
and I hear the hollow sound of water
I know they find comfort in my damp pillow.

What does not kill,
it makes me stronger.
And when you say that you are not in love,
I know I'll be okay.

When I try, and you yell.
When you say things to be hurtful,
When you attempt to bring me to my knees,
I know love, yet I don't know you.

I try to tell you how I feel,
you hang up, and I feel the disconnect.
Is it weak to love unconditionally?
Yet, I know that when I finally have love,
I'll recognize, hold on, and appreciate.

God has been my rock, my life,
he does not forsake. So while it hurts,
I must smile through,
Because only God knows my truth.

Who needs friends when evil shines through?
Love is not needed if it only abuses
Love is unconditional, I say and I truly believe.

Only a fool believes that she brings
the beatens of her loved one upon herself.
Only evil fails to control what can be controllen.

I cry, but I am not sad. I cry, but I am not happy.
I cry because I am, and I cry because it releases me
To not be understood is frustrating,
but to be thrown away is so real.

Who needs what can not be had?
I can't take, what God doesn't want me to keep.
My rock, my foundation, he rules me.
The queen that I am in my heart must not become the keep.

My dad he told me, that we could never be.
Yet for some reason I thought I knew more than he.
You are not me, and I not you.
I want so much more than what you can do.
You see, I want forever, and what it brings.
No need for hate and all of its strings.

Tomorrow will soon be yesterday.
And these tears I cry will go away.
And you, whom I'll never understand.
Will wash away like castles in the sand.

And even as I cry, I know your truth.
Your truth, is not me, and you say I'm not you.
I'll never understand why you carry on so.
It seems right and wrong does not make everyone grow.

What I feel is no longer a right, but a major wrong.
Love, I know, is unconditional and the tears are gone.
And even as lay on my wet pillow tonight.
I orgasm into my future, because tonight
tonight I learned your truth
and only God knows mine.