Life, Love, and Disaster

This week's struggle:



I'm having a difficult time wrapping my head around the fact that good people don't always prevail.  When guys make the comment that good guys finish last, I roll my eyes.  cliché.  But I am struggling with this idea that people are continuously rewarded for making bad decisions.  But what about me?  Trying to make good decisions.  Trying to make meaningful contributions to society. Whatever happened to the good "guys" winning and the bad losing.  Whatever happened to wanting the good girl not the bad one?  Oh wait...maybe that was never true.  Wait... what did my guy friends say... Oh yeah, they say guys want the bad girls till it's time to get married or something super selfish like that (they aren't telling the truth here either, but it makes them feel better for their behavior).  I'm not about to get into our paternalistic society.  This do unto others as you would have them do unto you.  That ish doesn't work.


I don't want to be one of the good ones anymore.  It's just not appreciated.  I'm going to do what I want like everybody else.  How does it work again?  Just apologize later.  Yeah apologies don't really feel that great but you have to accept them these days.  Plus everybody else is doing it.  Being a leader is for the birds.  I want to be a winner.  The only way you can do that these days is by being a loser.