Every where I turn I see babies.

Sarah's teeny tiney 20 day little girl.
Mom's great idea to buy four books about babies...
Baby showers.

Babies
Babies
Babies.

Maybe it's something in the water.

Toxic relationships!'

When a blind man leads a blind man, they both end up in the ditch'(Matthew ) (15:14TM)

Your development, and in some cases your healing, can only take place when you walk with the right people! Remember the story of the scorpion that asked a frog to carry him across the river because he could not swim? How do I know you will not sting me? the frog asked. If I do, we'll both drown, he replied. So the scorpion hopped on. Half way across the river the scorpion stung him. As they were drowning the frog said, 'You promised you wouldn't. Why did you sting me? The scorpion replied, I cannot help it, it's my nature to sting.

Learn to recognize toxic relationships and walk away from them before they take you down with them. A toxic relationship is like a body part with gangrene; if you do not amputate, the infection will spread. Unless you have the courage to cut off what will not heal, you will end up losing much more. You cannot partner successfully with someone who does not share your goals. When you feel passionately about something but they do not, it is like trying to dance the fox trot withsomeone who only wants to waltz. You picked the wrong dance partner. Do not get tied up with someone who does not share your God-given purpose. Some issues can be corrected through teaching and leadership, but you cannot teach somebody to care. And if they do not care, they will infect your environment, ruin your productivity and break your rhythm with constant complaints.

So ask God, 'Who belongs in my life?'

A part of me wants to leave you alone.
A part of me wants for you to come home.
A part of me says I'm living a lie.
And I'm better off without you
A part of me says to think it through.
A part of me says I'm over you.
A part of me wants to say goodbye.
A part of me is asking why...

A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And everytime I think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
And you got me just torn.

Torn in between the two
Cuz I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
And you got me just torn in between the two
Cuz I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone.
Leave you alone.

There were no issues when we started out.
It was cool.
It was everything that love's about.
But something happened.
Plus I feel it's over now.
Cuz I can't understand you now.
I just can't understand you now.

A part of me says it's all my fault.
A part of me says "he ain't what you want."
A part of me says to get my bags.
A part of me says I can't do that.

So many times I... I was ready to go
So many times I... Had my foot out the door
So many times I... I thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.
Cuz I keep fighting myself for you.
I don't know how much more I can take but I can't feel this way
You got me so torn

I let you go the other day.
I even told you so.

I said my path is changing.
I'm growing up.

You told me you knew, but that I didn't.
I shook my head.

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How do you miss someone you never spoke to?
How do you miss someone so far in your past
...who knows nothing about your future?
How do you miss someone you never see?

How do I miss you?